I don't want anesthesia for breakfast again,
no pouring naptha on my cheerios, or ether 
in an oatmeal feed bag over my nose and mouth.

(However nasotracheal intubation of coffee
is indicated per DSM-5, 315.30 (F80.89) –
Pragmatic Communication Disorder, e.g. Poetry1)

Better your feral kissing stays stitched
across my skull, sutures of the cranial plates
fused into a flight of starlings, like radios

tuned to the shillelagh station – Swing, somewhere
between Cab Calloway and a blackthorn club
arcing towards my head.

Only you.

1Diagnostic Features:

“Social (pragmatic) communication disorder is characterized by a primary difficulty with pragmatics, or the social use of language and communication, as manifested by deficits in understanding and following social rules of verbal and nonverbal communication in naturalistic contexts, changing language according to the needs of the listener or situation, and following rules for conversations and storytelling. The deficits in social communication result in functional limitations in effective communication, social participation, development of social relationships, academic achievement, or occupational performance. The deficits are not better explained by low abilities in the domains of structural language or cognitive ability.”  (From DSM-5, pg. 48)

Shay’s Word Garden

TSM 194

Your glass eye(s) breaking
my heart like a highway at night
of endless black mirror crushed 
beneath tires at high speed
the splintered light of oncoming cars
unseeing but we are not blind 
in the onrushing darkness, no
love is not blind
in your arms the shivers and slivers
clear and bright

The Sunday Muse

The Q100 to Rikers

At the end of the line – Ditmars Boulevard
in Queens – shake yourself awake, 
yawn, get off the N train.

In the shitty weather walk three blocks 
north on 31st to the bus stop, 
about 50 feet from the corner.

There you can wait in line with the nuns, 
wives, mothers and girlfriends
for the Q100 to Rikers.

You've never been to this jail –
an island in the ocean sound
built on bones and sorrow, 

landfill of ashes, ghosts,
hauled by the inmates
to make their own burial ground.

If you are looking for prison poets –
who shot their lovers like Verlaine shot Rimbaud  – 
they are slumped in plastic chairs in front of the tv.

They know a thief when they see one.
You are here with your poetry workshop
to steal what is furious, fierce,

Eat and feast on what is glorious:
"The heart of the poem of life
butchered out of their own bodies 

good to eat a thousand years.*"

*Allen Ginsberg, "Howl"

Shay’s Word Garden

For Laura Nyro

When three dogs howl in the night, what's a catgirl to do?
Skinned of song, you yowl the blue in your veins
like a train whistle exhaling, wailing,
disappearing like oxygen that ends in fury,
a holy song that confesses what every Tom 
in the alley knows:
hide your heart fearless girl –
it's only a short toss
into the remaindered hay,
for when the winter snows part
there are no coffins for strays.

Shay’s Word Garden

TSM 190

No, no. 
No lap-dances with angels,
no pushing cash into the elastic bands of their wings
and copping a feel of heaven.

Is it my fear, yours? 
To be skeevy and homeless in the afterworld?
Me, haunting and flapping down the sidewalks of paradise,
the smell of urine parting a sea of cherubim.

And you, in Job's rags,
riffling through the trash,
collecting Diet Coke cans 
of redemption.

The Sunday Muse

TSM 189

Watching Beatles clips on YouTube –
John Lennon walks into the studio
in a giant fur coat twice his size
that looks like an apex predator 
humping Little Red Riding Hood

It is the moment just before 
they devour the band forever,
and all I can think I as I watch –
they all have
such small teeth

The Sunday Muse

The Web of Life

Did you just brag you measure your life in sheets of toilet paper? 

Stuck to the bottom of your foot, uncoiling the roll as you leave the bathroom you are a Charmin spider, exuding and unspooling your load as you walk through the living room and out the door, taking the bus to work where you circle the conference table until your boss is wrapped like a Halloween mummy so they send you to Paris and you are on the airplane jet trails of TP streaming and screaming out behind you, you’re a paper Frequent Flyer, Million Miler club of all the crap you’ve had to deal with, don’t cry or the world cries with you and we have to wipe the whole soggy gobbledegoo from our eyes our front yards the earth a trail of tears and a white Christmas after all?

Be careful – no smoking – or you will light a fuse and find the world is a bowl of cherry bombs, an explosion of blackberry cobbler without sanitary napkins, a spark that follows you back igniting your history if not your imagination, unwinding and spiraling the idiots and maniacs into torched frenzy until at the very end of the line you find your head in a gas oven like Sylvia daddy daddy daddy

with poems burning their way across the kitchen floor.

Shay’s Word Garden

Bobby Bly and F. Scott Fitzgerald Walk Into a Bar…

Bly's is the cue ball, his mind 
breaking Fitzgerald's rack,
club ties striped and solid but
eight-ball in the corner pocket,
the dark-haired fever of it –
F Scott buried in a pauper's grave

Though Bly is only twelve in 1940
the next morning they're chewing cigarettes 
and champagne, tobacco 
bubbles and sparkles in their teeth –
light of the sun trespassing 
through the empty glasses

Fitzgerald is a flabby edition, his suit dog-eared,
unsteady from the hotel, bookstore to bookstore, 
asking for a copy of his books, but no, 
his work a has-been, a feather
mourning the precarity of wind
and tremendous fame.

Bly says we're dead now,
whither shall we go?
We lived in the front pocket of delirium,
sorrow and lint to mix for our ink.
Vienna will not have you
nor write on your tomb:

“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

Shay’s Word Garden

Whisky Elegy

Reader, now you are fully here in the poem.
This is how the poem, you, and I 
transcend illusion, maya.

Tell us how outside your window rain beats a can –
the one you left on the porch of hair mixed with coffee grounds
swept from the kitchen floor last spring.

And I will admit my mother was already lost
as we drove from warehouse to warehouse in Denver
looking for heroes and boxes of steel ball bearings.

The poem tells us these are where we hide,
our thoughts tangled in umbilical, helical ropes
that hang our hats or our heads.

I am a large man, if I try to wear your clothes
they will burst. If you try to see yourself in my mirror
you will be unshaven and want a clean bar of soap.

There is no "chop wood, carry water" here, only 
an apartment in Weekhawken above parking lots
filled with brown leaves, thin puddles.

Let us break bread together then,
raise our glasses without deception – utterance 
and burning promise in our throats.

The Sunday Muse